i think how bad a flare is for me is directly proportional to the amount of time i then spend googling naturopaths, integrative medicine, functional medicine practictioners, FODMAP, gut healing…
after three weeks of this it’s time to haul myself into the GI to see what’s going on.
has anyone had any luck with gut healing diets or combo treatment between GI + naturopaths/functional or integrative docs?
i went into 2014 with a lot of goals, which is kind of unusual for me. goals, not resolutions. i think after the upheaval (and growth) of 2013, i was ready to just do it. i had a quiet, but strong, motivation to just do the things i wanted to. those things were mostly self-care and finance-oriented, with a few random things tucked in. and now that it’s almost MARCH (!!!), i felt like checking in.
1. eat less sugar. — i like my tea like irish people like their tea. milk, sugar, many cups a day. mmm. but refined sugar really isn’t good for me or the constant weight ups and downs that come with a stomach problem. so i’ve started out using an actual measuring spoon to put sugar in, and i’m hoping that gradually i’ll tame my sweet tooth and will be able to size down how much i put in. (going pretty well. but i don’t have to like it. grr.)
2. develop a wellness routine i can stick to. — i’ve decided to get real and just face the fact that cardio does not really feel good to my body right now, and that can be okay. i thought yoga was really going to be my jam, but lately i’ve been enjoying some light strength training at home. it’s hard to stick to a routine when i can randomly feel unwell any day, but my goal is to find something that feels good (probably a yoga/strength training/walking combo with a bit of biking to work) and that i enjoy, and keep doing it, whatever it is. (going fairly well. walking not so much because winter.)
3. hydration. — i want to drink at least one liter of water a day because i am always dehydrated. (not going well. no excuses for that one.)
4. invest in myself. — this one is kind of weird for me, but i decided that instead of always thinking about coloring my hair or whitening my teeth or piercing another hole in my ear or whatever else i wanted to do i was just going to go for it. and it has been fun and confidence boosting! (going well.)
mind and spirit
5. ‘complete’ 15 poems this year. — in my ‘just do it’ spirit, i got myself back into a poetry workshop. i’m glad i did. (going well.)
6. read more than i did last year (30+ books, not including poem collections). — i love to read. reading is good for you. (going… okay. reading the goldfinch set me back because damn, that book should count for five books. and i keep starting books and not finishing them. but i’ll catch up no problem.)
7. go out dancing! — i am not a particularly good dancer but BOY did i have fun shaking my tailfeather with my friends in college. (no progress yet. i am such a housecat in the winter.)
8. want less. — i love browsing etsy, pinterest, society6, etc for inspiration but i also know that it just fuels a want for stuff in me. and online shopping is so damn easy that you can click and buy before you’ve even thought about it. i don’t over-shop online, but i do over-want. so i’m trying to scale that back. (going fairly well.)
9. do not buy ANY clothing i like in fabrics i hate. — simple enough. i always get sucked in by cute things and never wear them because the cheap fabric makes my hair staticky or doesn’t stretch over my shoulders. no more of those purchases. (going really well! surprisingly. i have laid down the law with myself.)
10. reduce impulse buys at CVS and target. — i don’t know what it is about stupid CVS but whenever i pick up a prescription i always browse nail polishes or whatever other little thing and it’s not a wise way to spend my money! (going better than expected. i just try to stay out of the makeup aisle now unless i came in for a specific thing. i also try to motivate myself by saving for a higher end product instead of trying three drugstore foundations and not really being pleased with any of them.)
11. take— and save for— a real vacation. — i’m on my way! flying out to visit jeff in march and while a long weekend in cleveland isn’t exactly exotic, it’s going to feel nice to take a paid day off and spend money i’ve saved on purpose. (going well!)
overall, i am surprised to say, ‘you go, self.’ i am trying to make 2014 a year of health and happiness and i think i am on the right track. xo
this is unusual for me but i am just over the edge today. do you ever have those days where everything is 600% more stupidly difficult for you than it needs to be? some of this exasperation comes from not feeling well, some of it is still grieving, and some of it is just freaking justified.
i am a woman with a stomach problem. that’s fine. some days i feel really sick and just want to get home. i get on the bus, stop by the supermarket to get some ‘safe’ foods, and walk home.
but some days your coworker monopolizes the only bathroom and you can’t go to the bathroom before you get on the bus. then a man sits beside you on the bus and wants to talk to you even when there are tons of available seats. and then you go to the supermarket to buy bananas and are subjected to some creep’s ‘banana’ comments. you walk home and you’re stuck behind a guy smoking and you can’t pass him and therefore you can’t breathe.
like seriously?! FUCK YOU and your stupid banana comments. how dare you bother me in the supermarket. how dare you assume that you deserve my attention and i am obligated to give it to you when i’m just riding home from work. next time i will VOMIT ALL OVER YOU (meet my stomach, i ain’t kidding) and then you will regret harrassing women. the end.
so far 2014 is becoming the do whatever you want/ put another hole in your ear/ dye your hair/ plant a garden/ and buy plane tickets to cleveland year and i am actually really okay with that.